It's 2 a.m. on a Friday night. Nothing crosses my mind besides the thoughts of how many hard times, the times where I suffocate, the times where I feel like attempting suicides. But here I am, still breathing and living the moment. For a girl of my age, I consider myself I have been through so much which makes me the proudest. I am so proud of how far I've came. The worse the thunder, the shinier the rainbow I guess. If I didn't went as many as obstacles I've been through, I might not even be where I am standing now. For all the good and the bad times, I accept it with an open heart because of a strong believer I am that everything happens for a reason. I'm once so afraid of the future because I've failed once. I fell too hard that I didn't even had the guts to stand up again. But then again I learned that Life is all about taking risks. If you win, you're happy and if you lose, you lose nothing but becoming a better person. Also, I strongly believe, some kind of miracle is waiting for me in the future insyaAllah. God's plans are always better than ours. To my future self, look at how much you're grown up. Be proud of who you are now. I am proud of you. You're a strong and a wise girl. You're the girl with light in her eyes. Never forget who you truly are, be good and remain kind to everyone as you were. Be you.
Love, your 18 years old girl.
